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my life is one step closer to complete… i finally found an mp3 of patty griffin's “top of the world”.. not the dixie chicks– patty, the one who actually wrote it. she never fails to put my soul at ease…
“cause everyone is singing, we just want to be heard.. disappearing every day without so much as a word.. wanna grab ahold of that little songbird, take her on a ride to the top of the world”

i guess i need that song now cause i'm disappearing in a way.. i'm in my own little world right now… can't deal with people at all. still getting hurt and i don't know why. i'm sure it's just me, it usually is. right now i just want to make sure i don't hurt the one person who somehow manages to tolerate me. so i am in my own place right now, taking refuge in the few things i'm not afraid of. those certain songs, the special dreams, tiny but meaningful points of light in the day, those lonely books on the shelves…

“Am I not pretty enough
Is my heart too broken
Do I cry too much
Am I too outspoken

Don't I make you laugh
Should I try it harder
Why do you see right through me

I live, I breathe, I let it rain on me
I sleep, I wake, I try hard not to break
I crave, I love, I've waited long enough
I try as hard as I can
I laugh, I feel, I make believe it's real
I fall, I freeze, I pray down on my knees
I hope, I stand, I take it like a man
I try as hard as I can”

-kasey chambers